A CHEETAH never changes its spots

The Musings of a Girl in 'Trouble'

Sat, 05 Mar 2011 05:05:00 -0500

So, I hit my second trimester a few weeks back. Freaky, right? Time just seems to have fallen in on itself and decided to race past me. I hear that’s what parenthood is like, a blur, a constant rush on the brink of mad panic to protect someone who’s defenseless. I still don’t know how I feel about that- being ‘mommy’. I know that I love my baby, a son, who I’m supposedly going to name after my AWOL father. He’s visible now, a very neat and tiny bump, but this isn’t really a surprise- I was never a large girl anyway. It was only a matter of time…

Keith Evan Reigh

I just hope my dad is as worthy a namesake as Evan. Evan is my hero, my idol. I’ve never told him this, and I don’t think I ever could, it’d make me cringe to do it. You see, I’ve always been massively jealous of Evan, moreso when we were younger. He could always do everything quicker and better than me first try. Though he did have the advantage of age, my aunts wasted no time reminding me that he had learned it all, in his time, much earlier than I had. But it’s more than his status as uber-powerful manwitch that makes him a guy I’ll always look up to. Evan is the only member of my family I can honestly say has ever loved me, or been loved in return for me. I’m really not into the whole tearful confessions and ‘I was never loved’ crap. That’s bullshit. But Evan is the least bullshit thing in my life, or was, for a long, long time. His strength in the face of adversity, his unconditional love and his example are something I’ll definately use when I’m raising my boy. Evan is my rolemodel now, I only hope my son will follow in his footsteps sooner rather than later, before my baby ends up like me. And I hope, more than anything, my dad (who I’m pretty sure my mom has been lying through her teeth about) is as good an example of a REAL man as Evan.

With Dempsey? That was his name, right? Out of the picture now… Not that he was ever really in it. My baby is fatherless, or so it seemed, until about a week ago. I should probably explain that recently, ironically around Valentine’s Day, a new guy came into my life. He’s a Cupid called Alexander Scott. “Xander”. Which is massively fucked up, since it kind of means he can never be around much, and that I’m “supposed” to fall in love with him because of his golden arrow. We tried to get physical, I think the fact the moment was disrupted every time is a sign. We’ll wait, we’ll get to know eachother… He’ll father my boy. Or so he says, and I thought it’d be great, at the time he was mortal- pending trial for falling in love with me and neglecting his duties- but now they’ve called him back and I haven’t seen him in… Well, what seems like forever. He’s a bit effeminate, very blonde, chiseled abs… I’m a little dissapointed he doesn’t wear a diaper. But I think I could love him, if I give in to my stubborness, I think I could.

Life is insane right now. I need to tell my bosses I’m pregnant, tell my mother I’m pregnant (OhHellOhHellOhHellOhFuckFuckFuck) and find a dad I’ve never met… And I’m pretty sure my mother will object to that, finding my father. I’m also pretty sure she could magickally kick me and baby Keith into the middle of next week.

Fuck.

madcowre: cutesecrets: Be sure to reblog first! :) I...

Thu, 03 Mar 2011 15:18:28 -0500

madcowre:

cutesecrets:

Be sure to reblog first! :)

I screamed.

Here's to the kids who try their hardest to be good enough for everyone; who spend hours reading random quotes to find the right one; who listen to the same song dozens of times because the lyrics mean a lot; who deserve so much more than they get and are willing to fight for it and whose wish upon a shooting star was wasted on someone that will never care.

Sun, 30 Jan 2011 12:50:24 -0500

vamphadley: Cat picture via Bail56, Words.. ME!

Sun, 30 Jan 2011 12:49:50 -0500

vamphadley:

Cat picture via Bail56, Words.. ME!

@_MaureenBoyle dreams of being… like this!?

Sat, 29 Jan 2011 18:37:36 -0500

@_MaureenBoyle dreams of being… like this!?

runningwithw0lves: OHMYGOD hahahahaha

Sat, 29 Jan 2011 11:28:06 -0500

runningwithw0lves:

OHMYGOD hahahahaha

drunkskars: See that? That’s ASkars grabbing the midpoint of...

Sat, 29 Jan 2011 04:09:20 -0500

drunkskars:

See that? That’s ASkars grabbing the midpoint of his cock.

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Thu, 27 Jan 2011 17:43:26 -0500

Reblog if you love Helena Bonham Carter.

Wed, 26 Jan 2011 20:02:31 -0500

queenbitchincharge:

whatthefawkes:

who doesn’t love her? she is a goddess!

sunshineseverus: giggles This sounds a lot like…well, ME!!

Wed, 26 Jan 2011 18:31:15 -0500

sunshineseverus:

*giggles* This sounds a lot like…well, ME!!

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Wed, 26 Jan 2011 18:04:44 -0500

"The heart dies a slow death. Shedding each hope like leaves, until one day there are none. No hopes...."

Wed, 26 Jan 2011 18:03:40 -0500

“The heart dies a slow death. Shedding each hope like leaves, until one day there are none. No hopes. Nothing remains.”

- Memoirs of a Geisha (via pieconspiracy)

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Wed, 26 Jan 2011 18:03:01 -0500

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Wed, 26 Jan 2011 18:00:43 -0500

majorfunnys: omnomnomnom .. wait.. Damn! Best remember THAT on...

Wed, 26 Jan 2011 18:00:09 -0500

majorfunnys:

omnomnomnom .. wait..

Damn! Best remember THAT on full moon…

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Wed, 26 Jan 2011 17:55:39 -0500

*Wonders what @Evan_Reigh and @PixieTheElf think of the blonde...

Wed, 26 Jan 2011 16:46:50 -0500

*Wonders what @Evan_Reigh and @PixieTheElf think of the blonde beast that left muddy footprints on their rug*

Reblog if you believe true love has no gender.

Wed, 26 Jan 2011 12:23:29 -0500

str8uniballin: le sigh *Thinks @Evan_Reigh need not help me...

Wed, 26 Jan 2011 11:26:15 -0500

str8uniballin:

le sigh

*Thinks @Evan_Reigh need not help me look for a job, Hugh Heffner already gave me one*

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Wed, 26 Jan 2011 10:50:29 -0500